When missing him gets difficult…I would die for any kind of communication. A text that tells me he’s going out. Or making dinner. Anything that doesn’t leave me feeling like I’m waiting around without a clue. Without a sound. As if I’m the only person that wants a part of this. I know that’s not true..but it would be nice to feel like he wants to show little things like that. I think I’m just whining. I’m overwhelmed with anxiety and I don’t expect him to feel responsible for fixing it. But if we could talk more, it would help. I don’t like feeling like I’m guilt tripping him into doing things…but when things get bad he makes an effort. Then it falls back into our own individual daily routines. I know I can’t be selfish with his time. Just wish, especially at times like this, that he’d be more available.